By Jacob Dimpsey
my world is fine ash,
kicked up by sure
footfalls. ash upward rising
from leaves after rain
into a crisp sky, blue
i want someone’s bleached
dry skeleton to hold or rubble
to shelter me in the cold or
some shape to contrast
against the unformed.
so i exhale a final breath
of smoke from a long since
spent fire and collect lumps
of dusty ash in my hands to mold
into the only shape i know. here is
a face like mine, full lips, long hair, a whole
heart, breasts, hips, thighs, calves. i call
her daughter. she blinks. she smiles.
she calls me mother. i form ashen
walls around her. here are buttresses,
here are towers, here are gates. i call
this cathedral. daughter lives here,
eats the fruit i have provided, sleeps
and wakes. beyond its gates i take
ash in my hands again and i dig
on my knees long and deep, here
all carbon molecules scooped up and held
by me congregate and squirm to life.
here is a skeleton with muscle, legs, and
a head. i call this animal. here is a brittle
exoskeleton with grey wings. i call
this insect. daughter
cries out to me, alone, in cathedral. i call
this worship. i dig
until my hands turn black and
the empty space outweighs ash.
i take a step back. i call this ocean.